Friday, November 12, 2010

November 12, 2010

We only have one life to live, and I plan to live mine. I have made choices I regret. I have chosen roads I shouldn't have walked down. But, I know this. I accept it. I will grow from it. There is no other option. Every time that I realize I'm going down a path that's either leading me to a dead end or in the opposite direction of my goals, I know that I must turn around and figure out where I need to go to get where I'm going. It's hard. It's complicated. Some days, it feels as though it's not worth it.

I have chosen to live. The good has to have the bad. Its up to you what you decide to do with those moments. For the life me, I can't remember what movie I was watching, but a particular scene has stuck with me. A man was looking through a photo album talking to his father about how he managed to stay married for as long as he had. The man it seemed as though his father and mother never had any fights. The father laughed, and simply said, its the fights in between the pictures that have made us stronger.

I don't want anyone reading this assume that I'm specifically talking about my marriage in particular. I'm using this scene as a reference to life in general. Of course you don't want to focus on pitfalls that happen, but to ignore that they've happened will get you nowhere. You must accept them and grow from them. God has given us these moments to learn how strong and courageous you really are.

Falling and scraping your knee. Broken bones. Hurt feelings. Heartbreak. Death. These are things we all have and will still face. Remember how often we got hurt as children? It was so simple to just get up and keep moving. Granted, emotional scars are much harder to overcome than physical, but the concept is the same. You may just need a little more time. My current frame of mind is to act. To live. To be the maker of my life, instead of a passive participant. I'm going to take those risks. I'm going to walk down those roads. I will learn from my mistakes.

This is my choice, and I'm grateful that I can make it.

"It is our choices that show who we truly are, far more than our abilities." ~ Joanne Kathleen Rowling

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