April 23, 2010

Wow. Two plus weeks since I've written. I don't feel horrible about it but at the same time, I feel like I let down my own responsibility. There was so much going on these past couple of weeks that this journal got put off to the back burners. There are so many things I want to make sure I get written down so that I don't forget them in the coming years.

I recently had to have a tumor removed from my thumb. This was an issue that I've been dealing with since Christmas when I first discovered the mass. I originally thought it was a cyst and just happened to ask the doc about it at my yearly physical. He wanted to have it surgically removed because he thought it was too deep to just drain. One x-ray and two MRI's later, I was in orthopedics, finding out the mass was a tumor, not a cyst. After scheduling my surgery appointment, I saw the hand surgeon, and he's the one who suggested that the tumor may actually be sarcoma, which is a soft tissue cancer. I was scared. The thought of having to go through Chemotherapy and not being able to take care of Ellie was heart wrenching. My mother, my rock, was there for me. She bought a plane ticket and came here for a week, just in case! She helped me so much during the week following the surgery, she was a true God send for me! I can't even begin to say how grateful I am for her and for everything she did and does for me!

I got the results from the tumor yesterday, and God was listening to my prayers! The tumor was benign and the likelihood of re-occurrence is almost non-existent! I am so grateful that this shouldn't be an issue I deal with in the future! God listened to me! He heard my fears and answered me! There are so few feelings that compare to the feeling of knowing you DON'T have cancer.

For now, that's all the time I have. I have to get back to my munchkin since she just woke up from her nap. I'm glad I had the chance to get that all down. I may have more time this evening to write more, but we'll just have to see how things go!

Have a great day!