Today was a long and hard day, emotionally that is. I hadn't heard from Tom all day, and it put a horrible spin on my day. I even went about the day seemingly happy, but it didn't feel real. I was grateful to be getting out of the house and doing something, but it just didn't seem to be me. I think I'm still in shock. There is a definite numb feeling right now.
That's not to say I haven't found something of which to be grateful. I finally got a phone call from Tom around 10:30 this evening. The connection was horrible and I could barely hear him. But I heard him. What I'm grateful for is that I was lucky enough to be born in an age where communication is so much easier. I don't know how the wives during the first world wars handled it. Not hearing anything for weeks and months at a time.
Our generation is a very fortunate one. I am able to hear my husband's voice from thousands of miles away, keeping my worries to a minimum. Obviously I can't help but to worry, but knowing that he really is only a phone call or email away, helps. The wives before me were so much stronger than I. I am grateful and flattered to be following in their steps, and living up the name of Army Spouse, the hardest job in the military.
Army wives prayer Dear Lord,
Give me the greatness of heart to see the difference between duty and his love for me. Give me understanding that I may know, when duty calls him he must go. Give me a task to do each day, to fill the time when he's away. And Lord, when he's in a foreign land, keep him safe in your loving hand. And Lord, when duty is in the field, please protect him and be his shield. And Lord, when deployment is so long, please stay with me and keep me strong. Amen.
Good night.
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