Tonight, I would like to think that the thing I'm most grateful for is my relationship to Tom. It has had some serious up and downs, but there have been numerous moments within the past few months were I've felt reconnected with him. We had definitely lost something for a while, and somehow, we found it again. Maybe it was our separation. Maybe it was this impending deployment. Maybe it was both, or neither of them. Only God knows. I believe that things happen for a reason, and all of the struggles we've had over the past four years are being resolved. I'm learning to let things go, and he's working at being more proactive. We're communicating better. We're trying. We're committed. While we were laying in bed last night, I started crying. I realized how much I'm going to miss him. I started thinking how I thought it would be easier the second time around. Its not. But, I've found a way to be grateful for that type of thinking. I'm grateful that it's NOT easy. I'm grateful that it is going to hurt when he leaves. If I didn't feel those things, I'd be much more alarmed. I'm grateful his date was pushed back, because even though I've said I just wish he'd go already, I know I'd be much happier just staying in limbo if it meant he was still here. So, tonight, I'm grateful for being in limbo and for being able to love my husband so freely.
"Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle, rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be." ~Author Unknown
Good night.
Marriage is always a work in progress - I think anyone who says they have a perfect marriage has a marriage that is probably in trouble and they may or may not realize it. Of course, there are times in all marriages when you think it is perfect because of a good day/week, but at the end of every day it is still a work in progress. I'm glad to see that you and Tom are continuing your work in progress -- it will be worth it because love each other.
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