February 28, 2010

Today was a really long day, but in a good way. There were so many positive things happening today, that it's going to take me a little bit to figure out what I really want to talk about. I need to make up for lost entries, so maybe I can spend some time talking about everything I've thinking about, but haven't written about.

Firstly, I know how grateful I am for my faith. My lenten promise was to spend some time every day for devotion to Him, and I haven't been able to keep my promise. He knows my intentions are well, He also knows how tired I am. I am constantly thinking about Him and what He would want me to do, what type of person I should be, so in that respect, I do have devotional time to Him. Just nothing official. Just my prayers and thoughts. I've accepted Him into my life, and I'm all the better for it.

I am also grateful for my daughter's ability to drive me crazy! I know that sounds absurd, but think about it. If she were always saying super cute things, they wouldn't seem as super cute, right? So with every evil there is a good, and I've found that in my daughter. (Although evil is a very harsh word, the point is made!) Her innocence and warm personality can bring me out of my darkest moods, and I'm so grateful that God blessed me with such an amazing child, and teacher.

Another thing that I want to point out is GOOGLE! I love Google. If it weren't for google, I would very rarely have any real time communication with Tom. The makers of Google are some really smart people and they have made one military spouse extremely happy. I'm able to send pictures, receive emails, chat, have video chats and what seems to be so much more. They have made my electronic and internet-base life so much easier that I would be rude of me to never include them in the numerous things I've found for which to be grateful.

The is the end of the second month of this journal, and I still believe that it was one of my better decisions to start this. Although my perspective and attitude is not positive 100% of the time, reflecting on the day helps me put my life in order. The past few weeks have been nonstop, and I haven't really had any time to reflect on my life and the things happening in and around it, leaving me restless. There have been numerous changes in my outlook that I feel like I'm turning into a better person. I don't feel as if my anger is encompassing me. I'm still easily frustrated, but when I'm doing all this reflection, and look back on the negatives as well as the positives. They say hindsight is 20/20, and let me say, I've got perfect vision! I'm learning from my mistakes. I might make them a few times, but I'm learning. And isn't that what life is? Just one lesson. One experience. One chance to be the best person you can be.

Positive thinking and negative thinking are attitudes. They are points of view, and show the way people handle their affairs.

-- from : http://www.successconsciousness.com/index_000033.htm

Good night.